Practice Letting Go

So, Ive been telling myself to practice letting go.

"Practice Letting Go"

And I am also a total drama queen! I make such a mountain out of a mole hill. My finances are not great, but I will be ok. I have £100 saved for rent which is due next Thursday. I have £100 saved for Australia which I will be leaving for in 3.5 weeks. I owe £100 to my boss and about £30 to the salon for my nails.

Id like to have £1000 to take to Oz with me. I have a couple friends I can hit up for a place to stay when I get there. I can start dancing straight away when I get there. Ive booked my flight up to London the day before I leave and Im staying at E's that night - she's the most important person I need to see before I go.

L is still suggesting I sell my Macbook... That will just never happen. I still have a few things to sell on Ebay and I need to pick up cash for my skateboard from D, thats another £45 towards my Oz savings.

There are a couple bars here looking for bar staff, so I reckon I'll hit them up later, it will make a nice change from where I currently work. Im also going to see if I can work the weekends at the local strip club until the new one opens. I think it will be open for the Easter weekend which will be busy. I need another £160 for rent. £100 for work. £30 for nails. Whatever my next phone bill will be. Id like to buy some travel insurance and insure my Macbook also. Would be good to get a couple months supply of my contact lenses too before I go.

Remain calm. Ships come in on calm waters. Be still. Let go.

I think Im going to go visit the Spiritual Church in town today too. Im practising listening to my intuition too. I think I need to practice meditation too and do my yoga everyday, it will help me to relax and let go.

I have go to learn to let go and just trust the Universe.

Here's an excerpt from an article I read by Barbara Brennan in a local spiritual/esoteric magazine at the salon:

The desire for material gain alone often originates in a lack of trust in yourself and the inability to believe that life/God/the world will provide for you. Often, it comes from an experience in early childhood of not being adequately supported or nourished, and this premature experience of hunger (for food, nurturing or encouragement) creates a lot of pain and a core belief that the world will not provide the necessary support.

Many people have a beautiful vision, but early experiences of apparent failure (generating belief that they are not good enough) mean that they will hit pain in the 2nd & 2rd chakras when they start the manifestation process. So even the smallest setbacks will bring up feelings of hopelessness and frustration that are beyond proportion to the event that is in the present moment.

Isnt that fantastic! I was like woah! Thats exactly what happened to me growing up and what Im going through. And since my knowledge of chakras is limited, Caite, the owner of the salon took me to a chakra poster and we looked up those chakras and I was shocked to discover this:

The second chakra is the navel and the third chakra is the solar plexus. (click on the picture to see a larger version of the picture and see what they are connected too. This is a better picture:




Survival and Inner Child issues are what I have at the moment. Im so glad Im discovering this because it means Im on the road to recovering and living the life I am meant to live, one of peace, love and abundance.

Anyway, I feel much better today, full of energy and happiness. I have nothing to worry about actually. Today I practice remaining calm. Visualising myself as a calm pool of water.

I really need to practice this visualisation stuff.