Paranoid Princess

So after I went on the sunbed today, I went over to G's place. I was very quiet when I got there. I didnt know I was feeling so shut up. So tense. All I could think about was the past month's paranoia that Ive been going thru. Eventually I told him and I started crying which surprised me. I guess I do shut things up. I made some realisations tho. I think Ive been so used to being tough that now Ive let down my guard and become vulnerable its a bit scary for me. Anyway, as usual, G was totally understanding and non judgemental and supportive. I said I was scared to tell him what was on my mind cos I didnt want him to think I was a psycho mentalist and not like me anymore.

It feels good to have all that stuff off my chest.