My faith has bi-polar

Dude. Im like up and then down. Im stressing and worrying and feeling low and failed and then Im calm and ok and feeling hopeful.

I think the key is to get things done. Even if its just washing the dishes and tidying up. Doing some yoga or other exercise, taking a shower, running errands and chasing up things. Maybe thats what helped me to feel a bit better.

Im going back to the local strip club tonight. Town seems busy so it could be an earner. Even if I make £50, its something. If I make £100, I'll be stoked. More than that and I'll be thanking my lucky stars.

I need to get happy. Im gonna go home, fake tan myself, do some exercise, eat properly and buy a bottle of wine. KJ has invited me round to hers to get ready as she also works there. We gonne drink some wine and party before we go to work, that will help to get me in the right mood - fun!

I really wanted to stay in and shag my boyfriend. Its been a whole week and I miss him. He is such a great guy. So supportive of me.

Ive started doing some work on Futurepulse which has helped to lift my mood also. Its looking nice. I need to add some social bookmarking buttons to it and a feed button so people can subscribe. It will be back under Future-pulse.net once Ive paid my web host bill. I got out of paying the £15 late payment fee by explaining that no one told me the bill hadnt been paid. So now I just need to pay £29. To be honest, Im not really bothered.

Ive had two time wasters of guys messaging me saying they have a foot fetish and want to send me $300 cash to worship mine. Liars.

Anyway, tonight Im wearing my fuck you black leather thigh high boots and Im gonna make some money come hell or high water! GRRR!

ps: I dont know what I did but Google arent sending me nice Ads, whats up with that Google?