Im totally going to go home and pay for more internet cos I just dont feel motivated to do anything sitting here at Belushis looking out over the ocean.
Its a nice day. Not too windy and the sun is shining. Still too cold for my liking.
I just want to get to Oz now. I want to start my new life. Im so bored. Everyday I check my emails, read all the blogs Im subscribed to, visit Facebook and Myspace, check my bank account, write on this blog, hope I get new comments, I love getting comments. And then Im bored.
I should be working on Futurepulse.net. I should be working on my FinDev blog, putting my banner on toplists and working on pics and vids for my store. I should set up an ignore line too. Some guys are such losers, theyll pay $2 a minute to be ignored.
I hope they rotar me on for as many hours as possible. I'll only be getting these two week's worth of wages before I go and I found out today I have a £75 phone bill due on the 20th. So thats £100 to bar tab, £30 to nails, £44 to web host and £75 to phone bill. And I still need to find money to book a hostel in Sydney.
I dont know if I should postpone the flight a bit, its a fully flexible flight. Its not like I have to be anywhere at any time.
I need to go home and sort out my internet connection and get the rest of my stuff on Ebay and put the pics and vids I have in my store and put my banner on the topsites and get some losers giving me money for nothing.
What a strange world we live in...
Last night I thought about life without my Macbook. Id actually have a life without it lol. So I thought about selling it for money to go to Oz. Id only get about £400 for it now that its a year old and has a sticker on the front covering up where it got burnt by a candle. Its got Dreamweaver and Fireworks on it. And VLC media player and other things. I dont know. I mean, I could use an internet café to get in touch with mom while Im away. My Macbook is convenient. But will it be a hassle trying to keep safe living in hostels and travelling around?
You see! I dont even know what Im doing! I dont want to be living in fucking hostels. I did that for 3 months last summer and I dont want to do it for a long period of time again. Fuck.
If I just had £1000 in my Oz fund, Id be able to relax. I could use my wages from the next two weeks to pay off my bills.
Fuck. I really just need a lump sum of £1000. grrr!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
I am so bored!
Posted by CATSKILLS at 3:38 PM
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Jitters before a big trip like this are nothing strange. It's a big leap so part of you is bound to want to stay in familiar, comfortable surroundings. But I think you should stick to your intentions. Meeting new people, doing new things will open up possibilities for you, give you new experiences and insights and ideas. Use it as if it's a laboratory for your future. When I first read that you intended to go back to the London clubs my heart did sink. It felt like you had lost sight of that strong place you were in - the awakening you went through last year (remember that list of your LIKES and your NO INTERESTS?). But that woman is still there I know. And you do have talent. I've seen your websites, read your material. You've got style and impact! Fabulous design and the attitude! Woh! It surprises me that you haven't taken up one-to-one domme work. It doesn't necessarily mean investing big-time in a lot of expensive paraphenalia, or doing stuff you've no interest in. You can set the terms of what you want to do. I know women who've paid their post-grad fees and living expenses just using simple kit they could stash in a small bag. It's all about intelligence and sass, performance and talk, and you've got that in spades. Why not check the scene? Go to a few parties - you'd be a star!
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